Showing posts with label daydream. Show all posts
Showing posts with label daydream. Show all posts

Saturday, January 19, 2013

He Saved Me.


I was having a real tough time in my life (abusive ex, then rape by my best guy friend). To deal with that I turned to drinking and drugs. My best friend was straight edge and couldn't get through to me so she told me there was a guy who was interested in me (He was also straight edge and she put us together with the hope that he could convince me). She gave me his AIM screen name; we got to talking and discovered we had a lot in common. He eventually convinced me that I didn't need drugs or alcohol to be happy. We've been married for a year and a half. He really saved me.

Band Mates


I was in the same section of band as my gal. Over the summer when she was a freshman, I had all the freshmen's phone numbers in case they needed clarification on something before band started. I randomly texted them all to say happy 4th of July and she was the only one who gave a fun response. Since then we became inseparable best friends for a few months before we decided to go to homecoming as Bf and Gf. Best decision of my life was to text her that day

School Registration


I transferred high schools in between my junior and senior year. The school messed up my registration and I had to go to the office and wait for them to fix everyone's stuff. And since my last name starts with W, I was last. So I had a lot of time. My now-girlfriend asked me to sit with her because another boy was talking to her and making her uncomfortable. We began talking and have been friends ever since and in a relationship for four and a half years.

Friday, January 11, 2013

I Love You.....Even Though You Aren't My Boyfriend


I met him in my freshman year of college in this little hangout I tend to haunt on campus. Just a round room, lots of couches, chairs, a tv, pool tables and pop machines. I had seen him around campus for weeks and thought he looked mysterious. One day I show up at my usual hangout and there he is, sitting by himself, curled up in a chair drawing. So I pace around and chat with my friends while I figure out what to say to him. I finally muster up my courage and approach him, asking "Whatcha drawin'?" He responds in a deadpan tone: "Graphite on wood pulp." I was embarrassed and pissed, so I stomp off saying "Fine! Be an asshole!" The next time we spoke, we argued again over video games. He kept being there and we kept talking and very slowly became friends until that next spring when my boyfriend of a year left for a week to Italy. It was during this trip that I called him for the first time and we spent 5 hours on the phone. Every day that week we spent 6+ hours on the phone and by the end of it, I was crazy about him, but was unwilling to really think about it (remember, I had another relationship). Fast forward to that fall when he tells me in a shy, sheepish kind of way that he loves me. I spent the next two months tormented over my feelings for him versus my feelings for my boyfriend. In November, he flipped his SUV three times and it shocked me into realizing how I felt about him. I drove to his house in a panic to find him unharmed. That New Years he got incredibly drunk and spent two hours vomiting while I held his hair back while he gasped that he loved me with every breath. Two days later, while he was sleeping on the couch at the house my boyfriend and I shared, I snuck into the living room to talk to him (boyfriend was asleep and I couldn't). He told me he loved me and I said it back. We ended up on the floor making out and I broke up with my boyfriend two days later.
Tomorrow will be our sixth year being together. We got married in Grenada last July and have an apartment of our own. We're thinking of trying for our first child next summer. :)

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Known Her All His Life


I met her in grade 7. This is a long story but I'll try keeping it short.
She's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen..Lets call her Oriana. At my age.. you knew, she was the type of girl you would have never gotten. So I started asking girls out.. (Come on, I was 12 at that time.) and lets say, that ended pretty quickly.
Fast forward to about December..
I got invited by a friend to a little get together. She was there.. You know at this age we're still pretty corny. We played Truth or Dare.. Shit.
So It was my turn. (Truth) "How much do you like Oriana?" "A lot"
I spun it.. it landed on her.. FUCK. (Dare)
"I dare you to kiss.. Ken! (Me)"
She did. She was my first kiss ever.. well first one that meant something. (My real legit first one, used me to make some douche jealous. She didn't really count)
anyways, after 10-20 minutes we decided to end it. Everyone was scattered now. Some were playing xbox, upstairs eating, talking.. And I was on the laptop. She comes down, sits beside me and I straight up asked her if she would ever go out with me. It's been 6 years and I still remember the exact words she said.. "I would but you've been asking out way too many girls out. Its hard for me trust you."
Grade 10.. comes..
I saw her from time to time, and I smiled and she smiled. I didn't say a word because I was shy. The one day I said Hi she replied "Hey ken! :)"
That one day... man. It was the worst. I was real happy then I found out that was her last day for a year and a half, because she was going to france for over seas studies.
It sucked. Anyways. Senior registrations come, I was with my girlfriend (Now ex) and I see her! I was only expecting a smile and a hey. Shes about 2-3 feet away from me, opens her arms, and we hug! We were both all red, smiling, and i forgot about my girlfriend. She was extremely mad. I totally forgot that she didn't have a clue who that girl was haha.
Anyways, we hugged, and I asked how france was, and how I was real sad that the one day I said something, she left the day after. Turns out she was real bummed out too.
When I talk to her, I feel like I could just run off with her somewhere, and forget about all my problems.
And you know I really do love her.. Every guy knows her because shes real hot. Comments I hear is "Dude her ass! Shes hot! her body!" like come on.. I think shes beautiful. She has the most perfect smile ever, her eyes are the most perfect tint of blue..
Thing is.. this is our last year in school together.. I'm handing in my military papers in less then 2 weeks, hoping to get a career somewhere in the forces, and she's going off to College / University. I'm running out of time.
She's surrounded by her friends (Who are way more popular then I am.) and shes ridiculously busy.
I wish we could just have one night where we leave our cellphones at home, and go out to dinner. I want to take her home, and just snuggle with her, and tell her how I've felt about her over these past few years and why I'm doing all this. I don't see a relationship coming out of this at all... that would be great if one did.. I just need to get this off my chest.
We're really good friends and we know that too. We could see it in each other.
Ps.. Grade 8,9, she moved to different schools and we barely spoke. Same goes for grade 11. She was in France  I was kind of surprised when she remembered my name, and how good of a conversation we had, and kept up after all that time.
EDIT:
I went off track and didn't really keep it short. Sorry.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Going With Your Gut


I fell in love with her the first time I saw her.  When she walked in the room it hit me like a ton of bricks.  I know that she was special.

Fast forward 2 years.  We're best friends and I have a girlfriend, since she said multiple times that it wouldn't work out.  I start noticing that she might have a crush on me.  I ask her about it, and it so happens my hunch was right.  I leave my then-girlfriend to be with her and I haven't doubted my decision even once.